Take a deep breath...

I just checked my pulse and it is going at a high rate of 110. Literally, I feel like one of those old school cartoons where the heart is pounding through the chest like 4 feet in a perfect heart shape (although since I am a soon to be nurse I am inclined to tell you all that that is in fact not the shape of an actual human heart!). I am thinking about the NCLEX and driving myself crazy. Tomorrow is the big day and I am scared out of my mind. The last few days have been nothing short of a cram session. I am relearning a lot and I think this is the first time in a year I have been excited and inspired about nursing care. My last year of nursing school was horrible and I started wondering if I would ever regain my passion again. Well I have and I am ready to put it to good use. (Now if only someone would hire me!)

I have learned a lot of rules that I think will be very helpful for me tomorrow. I am going to list a few that are fun:

1. If two answers say the same thing, neither is correct
2. If two answers are opposite, one of them is correct
3. Sesame Street Rule: "One of these things is not like the others; one of these just doesn't belong."
4. Right answers are different from wrong answers because they are right!

and

Three expectations I am not allowed to have:
1. Do not expect 75 questions (this is lowest amount we can have, the highest is 265which = expectation)
2. Do not expect to know everything
3. Do not expect everthing to go right

Phooey, I really want everything to go right, to know everything, and only 75 questions!!!! :)

I am pretty sure I am going to go in singing the sesame street rule.

I guess I should get back to studying, and then off to bed for me by 10

I'm Gonna Beat Up that Old Mrs. Johnson!

I am officially only 4 days from taking my boards. I have been checking up on 75% of my class as they take their boards and so far only two people have failed (one person failed twice already). I am scared out of my mind but I think I will be okay. I have a strong confidence that I will pass.

On the job search, so far I have only been rejected! I had an interview with my own floor I currently work on and they also rejected me. Apparently I am good enough for the nurses to tell me I should work up here and to have a great 1 year review with BossLady, but not good enough to be a nurse on this floor. But I have been given a confidence from the Lord that I did not get this job because 6tower just isn't the place for me and that somewhere out there He really does have something in store for me, I just need to be patient!!!

However, I think I am going to miss the people I work with! They are really fun! I'm not so sure I will miss all of my patients though. Some of them can be crazy. Like tonight I have a patient that screams HELP HELP every 5 minutes. When I went in there one time, he says to me, 'I am about to do something really bad' hmmm what does that mean? I say to him. His reply, 'I'm about to beat my wife. Yeah I'm gonna beat up that old Mrs. Johnson'. Right. I'm scared :/. Thankfully I am Ms Lopez and not Mrs Johnson!!

Oh I got my motorcycle license and have been riding more frequently! Love riding at night--except there are more bugs which is really disgusting!! I had like six (smushy guts all over) bugs on my faceshield one night! Blech! It's fun anyway, can't wait to ride with other people though!

Well I better get back to work! So many vitals to do, so little time, so little energy, so much procrastination! (and the Best PCA award goes to....)

I Love everyone! I Love Jesus more!

Oh and Happy Birthday to Josiah! Yay for 15 years!

Boards, Motorcycles, and Dirty Fat Men

I am officially signed up to take my NLCEX-RN license exam. D-Day is now going to be June 30. I am scared to death as the day approaches quicker than I would like. I am nervous and I feel like I can't study enough. Pray for me that I pass and that I won't be too scared. Also pray that I can find a job. I have officially applied for every RN position the Mount Carmel and OhioHealth systems have to offer. I am not sure what is out there for me but I know God has something prepared.

On another note, I am currently taking my Motorcycle Basic Rider Course. I am learning a lot of techniques and becoming much more comfortable with riding again. I had a lot of fun and anger. There were a lot of very stupid people there that were frustrating me! But then I realized that I am not very good either so, I cannot blame them (except a little bit, because some of them were really stupid).

Finally, I really dislike dirty fat men! I am very sick of them pooping every 15 minutes, calling for me every 10 minutes, and I am sick of having to stand there holding the urinal while they pee. There is a reason man invented locks on the doors of bathrooms. It's not just for the person on the inside, it's also there so I don't have to be a witness, or front row audience member of your most private moments. I am sorry for the detailed description but I really needed to vent!

So I will conclude my post for now. I miss people I haven't seen for a while.