21 days and then I Habit!

I have forgotten the very reason I started this blog. I have always wanted to know how to not waste my life and I haven't been very good at figuring it out.

In fact I have done the exact opposite. I have wasted many a day sleeping in and then watching pointless television. I am a boring person right now. Although I do try to keep the house tidy, since I am the one home at most hours of the day....it's my way of living for something. It's really hard to just sit at home, no job, no money, no purpose. Sometimes I actually wish I were still taking some classes so that I do have purpose.

I went to church on Sunday and my pastor gave a great sermon. It was about faith. I have to admit I have been slightly faithless during my pursuit of a job. It isn't so much that I don't think God is going to give me what I need or that I have put Him in a tiny little box and don't think He can get out. It's the kind of faithlessness where I just kinda forgotten about Him. I keep depending on myself and trying to think independently from Him.

I am done putting myself before God. I am no longer going to forget Him. I know that He is going to give me a job...the right job...at the right time. No longer do I need to fear or worry about what is going to happen in the next few months, because I am His and He is going to provide what I need.

I have read that an action repeated for a minimum of twenty-one days is likely to become a permanent habit (David Crowder-from his book Praise Habit). I think that God has revealed to me that instead of feeling lifeless and purposeless during my unemployment, I need to take this time to develop a deeper relationship with Him. I need to really commune with God and listen to Him, speak to Him, read His word. Starting yesterday I will begin to develop a habit of reading God's word and really having a relationship with Him.

Yesterday I read about Psalm 1 in my book Praise Habit. I meditated on it and realized what I was really missing. Verses 1-3 really struck me and inspired me to really kick off this journey.

"Blessed is the man who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked or stand in the way of sinners or stand in the way of sinners or sit in the seat of mockers. But his delight is in the law of the Lord, and on his law he medittes day and night. He is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither. Whatever he does prospers." Ps 1:1-3

I am excited and hopefully by August 17 this will not only be a habit for me, but I will have a deeper and better relationship with my Lord.